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Blog Therapy


Time is really tight for me as I'm sure it is for lots of us. And yet still I have the desire to keep writing my blog, having only recently rediscovered it.

It's not that I haven't missed it.  I have.  I've just been so busy 'doing life' that by the time the end of the day comes, I am so thoroughly exhausted, there is just no energy left for me to even contemplate opening up the laptop again!

So what has changed?

Well my youngest is a little older and so that means a more regular and predictable bedtime routine. He is also in much better health as he was very poorly for a while which will no doubt be another post for another day.  This means once he goes to bed now, he sleeps and is not waking up frankly projectile vomiting (exorcist-style) across his bedroom, needing medicine, cuddles, re-settling, new clothes, new bedding, and a 'wipe-down' of the walls and or carpet!

He also is not having to have interventions such as 4 hourly meds day and night or IV antibiotics via a line into his heart (oh my poor nerves!!) and so now, finally and thankfully, when we put our kids to bed they generally stay asleep!

This is a HUGE step forward in terms of being able to have any rest time in the evenings.  So I have more energy :)

(This is also an explanation to those who know me as to quite why my nerves have become so completely fractured over recent years and why I never have energy for anything social in the evenings!!)

We are also of course in UK Lockdown, so you could be forgiven for thinking I must surely have more time on my hands.  However I don't!  I have even LESS due to the gazillion things I have to cram into a day.

So why on earth would I want to give myself more to do when I already have too much?

I've come to the conclusion it's Blog Therapy.

Just being able to take even 30 minutes a day to stop and reflect and it is doing me the world of good emotionally and mentally.  I re-read some of my old posts and I stated in there my original purpose for this blog was to give myself a place where I could write about the chaos that was our journey. And that remains.  This is my place.  My space.  For me.  Somewhere to put the witterings of my mind and to remember some of the craziness.  But also to stop and reflect and to notice all that is good.  I have SO MUCH to be grateful for but it's so easy to miss it if I don't make a conscious and considered effort to stand still for a moment and appreciate the moment.

These days won't last forever and however exhausting, I know there will come a point where I want to look back and will love these memories in future.  So I suppose this is my online journal.  A record of what went on.

As I say, Blog Therapy :)

WM x

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